it’s just one of those nights.? You know when you have those evenings where you feel very lonely though you know you’re not alone?? I had a great day, spent time with Jared and C hanging out at Jareds house.? It was an awesome time, just laughing and enjoying the company…
Here I am now, alone with my thoughts.? What am I thinking?? Well, I don’t know that I’ll ever want to be in a serious relationship again, but fuck I miss some of the stuff that? it comes with.? I miss being held for as long as I want/need.? I miss kissing… can’t remember the last time I was involved in a good make out session.? Yeah, it’s “so high school” but damn is it fun.
I’ve been thinking about everyone I was ever involved in a romantic? relationship with… and wondering why I was involved in most of those relationships.
Now don’t get me wrong, I know the score.? I’m far from beautiful.? I might go as far as to say that there are those who find me attractive.? Once I lose some more weight that number might increase a little bit.? But as far as being the kind of girl who attracts the kind of guys that make every girl in the room need a fresh pair of panties cause they’re all kinds of wet… yeah, that’s not gonna happen.? Not really my thing anyway – color me odd, but I think personality? is more important.? So I find a guy I think is nice, usually turns out not to be nice, end up getting treated like crap.? And fuck wasn’t even with a hottie for my trouble.
It’s all good though.? I’m comfortable with me and that’s what matters.? Well, mostly comfortable with me.? Working on the parts I’m not comfortable with, so it’s all good.? I’m just rambling at this point in case you hadn’t noticed.? I’d just like to make out with someone and be held for awhile afterwards.? That’d be nice.
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