randomly chaotic and frequently mundane

many many years ago, a livesized nude portrait of me was drawn in pastels. about 4 years ago i had to take it off of the board that backed it, and roll it up. i decided to re-roll it tonight, for a couple of reasons. since it’s so old, the pastels have dried to a chalky consistency i wanted to make sure that the rolling didn’t ruin it. i also wanted to re-roll it a little tighter and wrapped in better paper. while it was unrolled, i decided to take a few pictures of it. this is the top portion.

i think i saw this video for the first time in august or september… and it’s been about the way i’ve felt since about november… i probably listen to this song a couple of times a week… i love the movie. i’ve seen it a couple of times.

literally, that’s what i feel like.  while i’m all kinds of not energetic i’m cleaning out the freezer of leftovers.  it was vegetable soup earlier.  it’ll be chili later.  a check of the freezer revealed that i had 2 containers of chili from 2 different batches of chili in the freezer.  so i pulled out the older container.  i’m hoping that it’s from the last super spicy batch i made (since i make it different everytime).  super spicy would be good.  it would be very sinus clearing.  i have a salmon fillet in the fridge that i thawed yesterday, but i’m just not in the mood for any real cooking.

and of course, with illness comes the craving for kfc.  i don’t know WHY, but but i do.  last few times i didn’t get any kfc :(  maybe this time i’ll be able to get some.

so i have this cough that is fucking up my head.  seriously.  everytime i cough i get lightheaded and it takes me a few minutes to pull my head back together.  i actually coughed en route to the kitchen and fell down.  gage came over and offered me a drink from his cup and said “wassa matter?”  so VERY cute.

he’s doing good.  gage, that is.  he asked to go outside today by taking me to the back door.  when he was done outside, he grabbed his cup, came inside and shut the door.  that’s pretty awesome i think.

need to go to the grocery store today/tonight.

i need to burn a couple of cds of gage’s pictures… 1 for my parents, 1 for woody’s parents and 1 for us.  and get them mailed and stuff.

it’s a slow day blog-wise, lol.

about 3 minutes left in the avs game… it goes well.

i’ve been working on a grocery list today… nothing major just some food to get us thru the week.  especially since gage is home on spring break and is eating constantly lately.

gage is playing with a light saber.  that’s my boy *g*

i have a nagging cough that will not go away, and i would really like a cigarette.

gage is having a bit of an off day.  several temper tantrums.  he’s been having a little minor diarhea off and on the past few days, it’s probably making him uncomfortable and contributing to his irritation.  he’s also puked in the living room twice in 2 days.  blah, i say.

avs won.  excellent.

so i got a book from paperbackswap that i was waiting for. fat smash diet by dr. ian smith (of celebrity fit club fame). the first phase of the diet lasts 9 days… it’s a detox stage. no meat, no bread… mostly fruits and vegetables. basically for the first 9 days i would eat as much (freshh) fruits and veggies i want except for white potatoes and avocados, and water.

plus limited quantities of brown rice, beans, lentils, tofu, chickpeas oatmeal, soy milk (other milk is allowed but i don’t drink that), yogurt, egg whites, herbal tea.

after the first phase i would be able to add meat/chicken/fish to my intake as well as more milk, cheese, egg yolks, cereal, sweeteners, coffee, etc.

missing out on bread and potatoes for awhile will be difficult… but i think i can do that. i like that i don’t have to try and keep track of calories with this diet. definitely worth a try.

i took a cute picture of myself today… what can i say, i was just in the mood to play with the camera. *g* did makeup and hair and took a few photos. this was my favorite i should play with the camera more often. i used to all the time and had all these pictures of me that i loved… and that woody loved, he he. i haven’t really taken many pictures in the past year or so. i should start again. i need to take some pictures before starting the new diet… which is really just the next phase in my personal “i’m hell bent on getting back in shape” program. i didn’t take any true pre-diet pictures… so i’ll take em 10 lbs down from my starting weight.

i want to get my hair cut. it’s been waaaaay too long since it’s been trimmed or cut.