randomly chaotic and frequently mundane

So I decided to highlight my hair by adding a little blond.  Mom pulled my hair through the cap (which brought her tremendous joy, I’m sure) and put in the highlights.  Um… there’s quite a bit more blond than I anticipated.  Not that it’s a bad thing.  I always looked good as a blond.  Come to think of it, I’ve been thinking about going blond again… so maybe next time I’ll do the whole lot.  The only problem with a frosting kit is that the cap gives you instant roots — you don’t even have time for your hair to grow out some before you have roots.

Gotta figure out something to do with Gage on Saturday.  Mom & Joe are having the breakers re-wired so the power’ll be off.  Gage doesn’t handle that well.  He walks around trying to turn things on and getting upset that they’re not turning on.  So I’m gonna take him out to do something.  Just dunno what yet.

So they were predicting another major snowstorm, 8 - 16 inches was the last prediction I heard.  The panic set in, people rushed to the store, people bought a whole bunch of stuff.  Yeah, we got like 4, maybe 5 inches.  Hell, they plowed the roads completely clean, right along the curbs instead of just down the middle.  It was that light.  I hope some of those people who had the “I must rush to the store now” mentality feel kinda stupid now.

about snow that makes people lose all sense of reason and sanity?  Seriously.  The way they flock to the grocery store at the first hint of snow and buy whatever they see.  It’s like they think they’re going to be snowed in for weeks as a result of a few inches.  Personally, when I hear about the snow, I think “damn, I gotta shovel again,” not “Oh crap! I gotta rush out and buy more food than my family can eat in a week!!!”  People just baffle me, seriously.  I mean, the last time I checked, they DO plow.  The last time I checked, we’ve all been through this before.   And what are you people doing at the grocery store in the middle of the day?  Did you seriously leave work early so that you could go grocery shopping in preparation for the storm?  It’s not so urgent people.  I’m willing to be that you probably had enough stuff in your pantry already.  Maybe you needed a few essentials.  Maybe you really WERE out of milk.  But it’s not like you needed to buy a cart load of crap.

And while I’m on the subject… what do you do with the eggs, bread and milk?  Are you making french toast?  I mean, everyone rushes out and gets eggs, milk and bread when they hear it’s going to snow.  Why that particular variety of items?  It sounds an awful lot like you’re making french toast while you’re waiting out the storm.  How nice for you.  Pray tell, how you going to cook those eggs if the power goes out?  Just a thought.

I seriously don’t get it.

So let’s see… Shortly before Valentine’s day, my great aunt passed away.  It was sad.  She was a really great woman.  Some of my fondest childhood memories were spent at her house, playing in the fields, playing with the dogs. and eating one of my favorite foods ever — chicken pot pie (not the kind you’re thinking of though).  I wish I’d gotten the recipe for that when I still had the chance.

On Friday, I got some stunningly terrible news regarding one of my best friends in the world.  Let’s just say that the news was heartbreakingly earth-shattering.

On top of that, my Grandmother died this morning.  We’re all pretty shaken up, but holding in there as best as can be expected.  Gage doesn’t know what’s going on, he’s just upset that people keep bursting into tears.  Grandma was great.  I loved visiting her when I was a kid.  I wish I’d been able to take Gage down to meet her.

Add to that the two major snow storms we had and the hellish days they made at work, and so far February is turning out ot be one hell of a bad month.  Calgon, take me away.

So the previously mentioned co-worker isn’t working there anymore.  It’s sad, and it feels like a missed opportunity.  There’s been some level of flirting for awhile.  I never jumped on the opportunity.  Not having his number, I don’t have any way to get in touch with him.  I might ask around and see if anyone’s got his number.  I was thinking that it would be cool if I can get his cell phone number… then I can send him a bunch of suggestive text messagees until he figures out who it is.  That would be all kinds of fun.  For me, if not for him.  If I strike out on the phone number, I guess I can just chalk it up to a missed opportunity. *le sigh*

So I splurged today.  My feet have been killing me for months.  Up until about 2 months ago, I was wearing the same shoes every day that I bought before my son was born.  Since I work on my feet, they were not happy with that arrangement.  Didn’t really feel like I could justify buying a new pair though.  Mom had a pair that were a few years younger than the ones I was wearing and I took those.  They were a little better, but my feet were still hurting every day.  To the point where it was difficult to walk, to be honest.  So today I splurged.  I got myself a pair of shoes for work.  two, actually.  That way I’m not wearing them out faster by wearing the same pair day in and day out.  HUZZAH!

Ran up to he grocery store with mom today… the one I work at.  One of my co-workers was there, a guy that I’ve been attracted to for quite some time.  He’s tall, good looking, a nice guy, etc.  We were chatting a bit while mom cashed in some scratch off lotto tickets.  He said something about wondering what would happen if he kinda threw himself in my direction.  The only thing I can think is that he might be interested in me.  I’m thinking I might be interested in him being flung in my direction.  That would be certainly interesting and probably quite enjoyable.  Dunno if I should read it that way though.  I know he was involved in some way with one of the other girls at work, but I don’t know what the nature of their relationship was, how it ended, etc.  Might be something worth pursuing, that’s for certain.

Your lover will love you even more if you get them a pinata

clowns will eat me.

that’s it.  i got nothing else.

hey andrew, you still there?  lol

if it wasn’t for the fucking customers.

Yes, we start today’s blog with a quote from Clerks.  God I love Randall.  Anyhoo… Maybe I should change the blog title to “bitching about work” and invite a few people to guest post from time to time.  That could be amusing.  Something to think about, anyway.

Seriously though, as much as I bitch about my job, I really do enjoy it most of the time.  I just like to bitch about the ultra-annoying customers or the ultra-rude customers from time to time.  Mostly because they represent (to me) one of the biggest problems with the world today.  A complete lack of courtesy.  I can tell you that it’s very rare that a person in line at the grocery store, who has a large order, will let a person with only a few items go ahead of them.  Usually when it happens, it’s a Senior Citizen who is extending the courtesy.  Somewhere along the way, we’ve become a very “me first” society.  Whatever happened to “do unto others?”  And these same people who wouldn’t so much as offer a stranger a quarter if they’re a little bit short wonder why they keep getting hit with so much bad karma.  Well kids, that’s what happens when you don’t put out a little good karma.  It doesn’t take much… let someone ahead of you in line if they’ve got a lot less than you.

One of the coolest things I ever saw at work… a couple of weeks ago, a young man paused after I rang him up and proceeded to bag the groceries for the elderly woman behind him.  Then he put her bags into her cart and offered to help her to her car.  When she thanked him and said that he really didn’t have to do that, he told her that he hoped that someone was being as kind to his mother when she went shopping.

Nice things like that…  You get what you give folks.  Just something to think about.

For starters, I’m starting to think my buddy Andrew’s got the right idea.  I’d like to be immune from the registers.  Maybe there’s something opening in bakery or something.  Seriously.  I love my job but it gets annoying sometimes.  Like when you’re yelled at to stop chatting with a co-worker by someone who has done nothing BUT chat with co-workers all day, often ignoring customers in the process (which I have NEVER done).  Yeah, that’s annoying.  Or when you have a customer come up to the SELF checkout in one of those courtesy mobile carts that informs you that “I don’t know how to use this machine, so you have to ring me up here.”  Before standing up and walking over to the lottery machine to get their lottery tickets.  Can you say “Wow, stupid AND lazy?”  I can.  Loud enough for them to hear me at courtesy, as a matter of fact.  But he was so self absorbed I’m sure he had no idea I was talking about him.

Halloween approacheth.  I’m contemplating 2 costumes for Gage.  Either a pirate or an engineer (as in train).  Depends on which one I find a cuter costume pattern for, I think.

And then we come to MY Halloween costume.  I simply can’t decide.  On the one hand there’s Dr. Shots who, by all opinions I’ve gotten so far, would be the hit of the party.  Particular if I have a generous supply of, well… shots to go around.  The other one is the Trophy Rack, which isn’t so much a costume as it is humor.  It’s highly humorous, actually, and I think it would be quite fitting.  But I also think it’s a little tighter than I’m prepared to be wearing without a body shaper underneath.  I’m still weighing the pros and cons, but I think I’m leaning more towards Dr. Shots at this point.

I think that’s it for the moment.

Or is this commercial highly suggestive?

Spent 3 hours on the phone with CR tonight.  It was fun.  What’d we talk about?  All kinds of stuff.  I honestly can’t remember the last time I talked to someone that long on the phone.  My ear was starting to ache from the phone being pressed against it.  It’s all good.  Good conversations with good people are always awesome.  Part of me wants to pick up the phone and spend another 3 hours talking to him.  But that would be silly since everyone’s gotta work tomorrow and I really should be in bed right now.

In other news… can’t sleep, clown repellant only worked for so long, and that t-rex in the closet is STILL hungry after downing half of the clowns the other night.

All sorts of stuff going on.  For starters, an old friend found me on myspace, which is always cool.  Even cooler is that he’s someone I always loved hanging out with though we didn’t hang as often as I would have liked.  He’s one of the funnest and funniest people you’ll ever meet.  Hung out with him yesterday and it was so much fun.  I truly had a blast, couldn’t eat much cause we were both laughing so much we were at risk of choking.  Good times.

Hi AnDREWWWWWW….  Just had to throw that in.

C and I have dropped the “with benefits” and he’s now got himself a girlfriend.  Which is truly awesome.  I was afraid he’d shut himself off from the idea of a relationship like I did, and I’m so glad he hasn’t.  It’s really not a happy thing to do.  We’re still gonna hang of course, cause we’re friends, and that’s also awesome.  Cause I really enjoy hanging out with him.

Got some of the old gang together the other day for a game of penny poker.  Everyone wins when everyone has a good time, so we all won.  It was an evening of hilarity that can only be produced by inside jokes and jokes that are WAAAAAY out there.  Definitely need to do that again.  Too much fun not to.  Maybe with a slightly larger group.  4 was fun, 6 would be even more fun.

FINALLY saw Dark Knight a couple of weeks ago.  “Why so serious?” is my new favorite phrase.  No, actually it’s “I’m gonna make this pencil disappear” THEN “Why so serious?”  I know, I’m crazy.  But it’s ok cause I’m bringing all of you along with me.

You still there Andrew?  Just checking.  LOL  Hope this is making work more entertaining.  Speaking of work…

WHAT THE FUCK?????  Seriously.  People just cannot seem to either read or count.  I haven’t decided which.  Again on UScan today and again with people bringing 40 and 50 items to the UScan.  Seriously?  You have to inconvenience everyone else, right?  You’re that special?  Fuck you.  You’re not special.  You’re just like everyone else, only a little dumber.  Even better, one woman goes through with like 50 items.  Instead of doing her coupons at the end of the transaction, she does them in groups.  3 times while scanning her items, she decides to take care of some coupons.  Seriously.  And all 3 times, I had to go over and help her.  Taking up time that could have been spent helping other customers, or tormenting Andrew (yes, the same Andrew) or one of the guys in produce.  THEN it comes time to pay.  At UScan you have several options… credit, debit, gift card, food stamps, even old fashioned CASH.  But you cannot write a CHECK at UScan.  Guess how she wanted to pay.  Yeah. So I had to suspend the transaction so she could pay at customer service.  I wanted to cancel her order and say “I’m sorry you can’t pay by check at the UScan, you’ll have to go to a regular register.”  But then I’d get fired.  Which would suck.  I’ll save that for when I win the lottery or something.

it’s just one of those nights.  You know when you have those evenings where you feel very lonely though you know you’re not alone?  I had a great day, spent time with Jared and C hanging out at Jareds house.  It was an awesome time, just laughing and enjoying the company…

Here I am now, alone with my thoughts.  What am I thinking?  Well, I don’t know that I’ll ever want to be in a serious relationship again, but fuck I miss some of the stuff that it comes with.  I miss being held for as long as I want/need.  I miss kissing… can’t remember the last time I was involved in a good make out session.  Yeah, it’s “so high school” but damn is it fun.

I’ve been thinking about everyone I was ever involved in a romantic relationship with… and wondering why I was involved in most of those relationships.

Now don’t get me wrong, I know the score.  I’m far from beautiful.  I might go as far as to say that there are those who find me attractive.  Once I lose some more weight that number might increase a little bit.  But as far as being the kind of girl who attracts the kind of guys that make every girl in the room need a fresh pair of panties cause they’re all kinds of wet… yeah, that’s not gonna happen.  Not really my thing anyway - color me odd, but I think personality is more important.  So I find a guy I think is nice, usually turns out not to be nice, end up getting treated like crap.  And fuck wasn’t even with a hottie for my trouble.

It’s all good though.  I’m comfortable with me and that’s what matters.  Well, mostly comfortable with me.  Working on the parts I’m not comfortable with, so it’s all good.  I’m just rambling at this point in case you hadn’t noticed.  I’d just like to make out with someone and be held for awhile afterwards.  That’d be nice.